answers are no longer necessary.

in the game where questions are as abundant as herpes (ew, everyone fucking has it), the answers no longer become important because answers are like good people and there just aren't enough to spread around. so stop asking for them, and stop trying to force it to happen. 

what's more important is deciding what makes you happy, even if there is no logical reason for it. if a dude that is essentially a pile of shit trapped in a handsome man's body makes you happy, then you really just have to accept it for what it is. but if it doesn't pan out the way you'd like it to, you can't be upset either because you knew better all along. (note: this is for me to remember, and for you to learn from)

i cannot allow myself to be surrounded by negativity any further, it just isn't healthy. i expressed that to my ex-life ruiner, and i am sticking to my guns. i should love this holiday season as much as i've loved past ones, but it just hasn't panned out that way. i'm just praying that 2008 makes up for everything wrong that 2007 has done to me. 

i'm not asking why, i'm just asking for something fresh and new.