try not to ever say goodbye.

i wore my rubber boots today with black leggings, and splashed around happily in the rain. i don't like the way my co-worker smiles at me and then speaks about the worth of skinny girls. i do like breaking myself downverbally into a conundrum, i feel liberated when it's over. i like admitting the evil things i think, and realizing that they aren't so bad in the grand scheme of things and generally have an inherently good intention underneath. i don't like that my car window is still malfunctioning (especially in the rain), but i do like spontaneous trips to see ryan adams and actually meeting his crazy ass and feeling like a fan for once. if i were a soap dispenser, then i would be an alligator eating a heart. the soap-dispenser me now lives on my kitchen counter. i am a confidant, i am confident. i am content, i am always frustrated about something. i over-react about the tiniest things, but stay cool in the hardest of times. i am always justified and often wrong.

i am balanced. i love it.