total control.

my life is a constant repetition of designated driving, knowing when to shut up, forgetting to wash my hair, spending too much money, and knowing when to give everything you've got. constant balance. constant optimism. constant patience. constant (brutal) honesty. constant desire to be skinny and drinking instead. i'm an adult and i do what i want, but i often don't want what i have to do. i am going to send thank you cards to my friends for being alive. and to my mom and dad.